Missy Desiree Photography

My love for the juice all started one day out of the blue when my virgin eyes caught a glimpse of a beautiful green logo and beautiful people coming out of their doors with a clean classic crisp cup boasting their name “Starbucks.” I just had to find out what this place was about & as I walked into their doors I was greeted by a girl name “Barista” who harassed me by asking me “What can I get for you today?” I fumbled and tried to resist but it was like all the people around me sipping their liquid crack whispered to me to try it, that it feels to good and everyone does it! So I fumbled out the menu item that sounded the most tempting and paid my $5.00 without a second thought. When I received my hot white cup of White Chocolate Mocha and all the approving eyes smiled upon me as I took my first sip I was hooked!

From then on I’ve tried a lot of different types of Starbuck’s drugs and my recent favorite is a Sweetened Green Tea Lemonade which I have a hit of everyday! On Tuesday I had 3 cups of it and on my third cup realized that I had a problem. Now my Husband has tried to tell me this many of times over but like every addict we have to learn it ourselves and as I stared at the cup I had fallen in love with I suddenly realized that it was time that we both needed to take a break from this relationship. I told him my reasoning’s and how I felt simply stating that I’m the only one in this relationship that pays for anything and you’ve never once given anything back. That I get him for about maybe half an hour everyday and then he leaves. He tried to convince me to stay by telling me that he now offers a reward program and if I just stay I could have lots more of him, but I had already made up my mind. It was time!

I had a boyfriend like this once before named Red Bull but found out in the end that he was just really bad for me and I never turned back.

The first day away from Starbucks is always the hardest and I went back to his arms at lunchtime only to find out that by 1 o’clock he was gone and I was once again left disappointed.

Today is my second day in Rehab and I am proud to say that I have already replaced him with a new love named “Water” and we are off to a great start! He gives me an endless supply of love and when I find he is gone from my cup I can go just about anywhere to find him again & fill up!

I pass Starbucks sometimes and reminisce on the love we once had and promised that occasionally I’ll pop in to see my old friend and say Hello but we will never again have the relationship, the love and the closeness that I was so once addicted to.

It’s a new year, a slightly new me and hopefully by the end of this a smarter and healthier me!

You know those days when you just don’t want to get out from beneath the warm covers that are fluffed over you like a protective mothers wing? Or your husbands arms wrapped around you and you can’t move simple because you just don’t want to loose the moment. Those days when your eyes seems to be burdened down from the weight of life and you just want to hit that snooze button one more time? Yeah well this is my morning EVERY morning when it comes to going to the gym!

I have honestly used every excuse in the book including “My Gym Bag Broke!” like I don’t have enough bags the size of my head in my Shopaholic Closet!  Oh, and the whole set your alarm clock across the room routine, that never worked because I end up waking up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom and changing my alarm clock while I’m up!  Then there is the Husband who says “You don’t need a personal trainer because 1. it’s to expensive and 2. I can be your trainer.”  So I tell him as my trainer his only job is to wake me up in the morning and make sure I get to the gym and with an agreement I head off to dreamland and at 6am when I’m whining and turn over and say “I’m not going.” My wonderful perfect hard core pusher trainer husbands looks at me and says “OK.” and there my friends is another day gone by without the my much needed workout!  We’ve come to the conclusion that my husband is just as lazy as I am!

Working a full-time job & working on my dream is a exhausting and exhilarated feeling! Sometimes though glimpsing in the mirror can take those feeling and strip them bare leaving only your insecurity’s showing. My butt always staring back at me is no help either!

Thankfully I have the lucky ability to be able to move around my schedule to accommodate working on those insecurities, and recently I saw a quote that said “Find time everyday to put yourself first.” and that is what I plan to do.  I was always one of those people growing up that put everyone else first.  If you hurt ME a thousand times over I would forgive you because I didn’t want to hurt YOU! So in the process of growing up I’m learning to put myself first while not giving up the ability to forgive and in doing so have made it a priority to put my health and fitness first!

After the first day on the Treadmill I received a thank you card from you Cellulite because it was getting to crowded on my thighs!

So I hope everyone in the new year whether it’s your resolution or not, can find time to put themselves first and to do that one thing everyday they say they never have time for!